I love it how God can be so quick to shed some light on prayers and further prove that yall are on your knees regardless of knowledge of prayer requests. At the time I'm typing, I haven't even told people about this blog, let alone the entry on 2/12 which contains prayer requests. I just got a great lesson in adequacy this morning - something finally clicked.
In my study time this morning, the phrase "the battle is not yours, it's His; the victory is not yours, it's His" stuck out like a sore thumb. (Yes, God, I'm tracking with You on this one). Then shortly after I got to work, I was instant messaging a co-worker discussing Valentine's day. She told me how she had written some extra-special cards for her daughter's nursery-mates for V-day. I told her for me it felt like a normal day and I wasn't planning on doing anything special. She replied that she wished she'd had a chance to pull cards together for all her friends to make sure that kind of thought pattern (ie-just another day) didn't happen. It was then that God gave me some application to the point from my Bible study earlier and "a Grinch moment".
1) First the Grinch moment: Yes, you can say my heart grew a few sizes larger earlier today when I really started to consider the meaning past the commercialism of it all. I am quite single, but this is no reason to stick my head in the sand and pretend like I don't have a plethora of folks that I love and love me. That's one of my tactics though when there's potential hurt - just pretend like it doesn't exist and maybe it'll go away. But in doing that, I also closed myself off from appreciating all the people that are in my life and the good of Valentine's day. (Be gone whiney, single alter-ego!).
2) Now the realization: When my co-worker said she wished she'd gotten her friends a card so they wouldn't feel that way, the light went on. My heart change (aka Grinch moment) didn't come because she did or didn't get me a card (although it would have been very appreciated, touching and encouraging-don't get me wrong on that). Yes, God used her in an object lesson, but ultimately, it wasn't her causing lasting change - it was God working on my heart through our discussion. Now - apply that to Ireland and musical-adequacy prayer request on 2/12. Nothing I can do musically (or anything else for that matter) is going to change someone's heart. "Helloo, McCurry (yes, I am speaking to myself here)...you have been victim to the enemy's attack via your pride, so c'mon down of that high horse and show that the battle and the victory are His. Sure, play your best as you play your heart out on that guitar with those kids, but your ability can't effect heart change for good or for bad."
God may or may not involve me in His turning on of someone's heart light (Neil Diamond, anyone?), so I need to realize when I'm being attacked by Satan and be careful to keep any hints of pride in check!