Renewal

I've been concerned lately b/c I've felt exhausted...pushed beyond myself with responsibilities continuing to fly my direction. I've been wondering how useful I'm really going to be in Paris when I don't have enough energy for myself let alone to pour out in service.
Last night, I had absolutely no energy and was ready to just crash into bed when God was impressing on me to finish up my daily reading plan in 1 Thess. 3. 1 Thess. hasn't really been clicking in with me...fine book, but I haven't been able to sink my teeth into it like other books. So I basically told God I trusted Him to give me something in 1 Thess. 3...b/c I'm running out of fumes to run on. I found myself drifting off to sleep asking "are you working on establishing my heart as blameless in holiness before the Father? would you root me back into the ground by your living water...bring me back to abiding in the vine?"
This morning I woke up with a little better night's sleep under my belt, but I also feel like a fog has lifted. As my alarm came alive this morning with music from a local Christian station, I felt excitement to hear praise music and a hunger for my time with the Father this morning...a realization that something was coming alive again.
And all I can do is trust that God will give me what I need for each day...b/c I can't produce this on my own.